by Joy, Ola Kits
“While a child attending kindergarten Joy, cannot fully comprehend all the priceless reasons they are there – to socialize, make friends, grow, and prepare for ever higher realms of awareness – by that age they can, nevertheless, sense and grasp that their wise and doting parents have kept their very best interests in mind, and that is enough. Because with this awareness, they can at least stop trying to figure everything out and simply start enjoying their hand painting, alphabet lessons, and cat-naps. Knowing that even if they break a crayon or some lad pulls a chair out from under them, they’re still exactly where they should be, everything is going to turn out just grand, and everyone back home is as proud as can be.”
This quote came in to me from “the universe” quotes that I get for daily reminders and inspiration on July 16, the day before my Little Man came back home from his extended trip with Daddy. The whole week that I had without him was amazing! Again, it really was the first time in five and a half years that I didn’t have a “deadline” to the end of my alone time. At the same time, my heart and still existing phantom umbilical cord were being stretched to the limits. And… we have the impending doom of the first day of school coming up… hmmm…..
So, as the first day of school approaches ever closer, I am frantic to spend as much time with my son as humanly possible! Mondays are my one of my whole days with him in which his dad works from 7 am until 10 pm. It is bliss! We decided to stay home all day and just do random things together. The first thing was cleaning his room up a little. We made it fun!
Then we decided to make yogurt since he loves to eat homemade yogurt and raw oats with raisins, homemade soaked and dehydrated nuts and a splash of honey. We boil milk….
Let it cool until we can put our fingers in it without getting burned but really donʻt want to leave our
fingers in it.
He gets to eat the “milk skin” off the top while I am putting about a tablespoon of an older batch of
yogurt in the bottoms of each jar.
Then we pour in the warm milk and huddle them all
around a yogurt incubator. In about 14 hours we have
tons more yogurt (well in this case – 6 quarts).
And, then with any left over, warm milk, I make him chocolate milk! It looks really, super
funky before I stir it up…..
… because I add cacao powder and homemade stevia
and mint powder to it! I know, we get a little crazy
around here with all of our homemade stuff but we can grow things ALL year round so we do!
And, when we have a ton of stuff (like stevia and mint) we dehydrate it and powder it and put it in
all kinds of things!
Next, my son and I planted baby papaya trees that we started about a month ago. I am told they are
non-gmo strawberry papaya seeds. And, this is what I will choose to believe. Not sure how cross
pollination is NOT happening here with all the other papaya floating around… but we sure grow
them with lots of love and sometimes, that has to be enough!
And, we flaked out on our friends (including my friend who is going to help me learn how to make
my blog look better!) all day just to putter around the house, play action figures in the driveway, put
new handle grips on the “spidey” mobile (his little bicycle which he learned how to ride without
training wheels as a fatherʻs day present to his revered dad – another blog in the future, perhaps!),
eat lots of lilikoi and just be together. Nothing bitter, only sweet (well, a little sour from the lilikoi
and the fermented veggies which turned out great, btw).
The bitterness has crept in as I feel so torn about him being gone literally ALL day at school as a kindergartner. I am doing the right thing? Should I woman up even more and just keep homeschooling? I had a glimpse of MY future in the week he was gone and really do want to be able to surf more and do more yoga and do more paddling and do more beach and do more nothing and do more reading and do more promoting of our awesome health care kits (gotta add in a plug for that now… olakits.com :)) and just do more… or am I selling him out by sending him away? I know, I know, it is great for them…. just like the “universe” reminded me in the beginning quote of this – wow – increasingly long blog. But, is it really the best thing? The age old question… and, for now, I will trust him. I will trust that he is on his path and his path alone and will steer himself appropriately. (He did get himself picked in a lottery of almost 200 kids to be able to attend the top charter school in our state afterall…)
I mean, some say I was just his vehicle into the world. I like to think I am more than that, but am I really? Getting all chicken and egg now and will just continue to absolutely love him, love him, love him and cherish every single moment that I have left with him! And, yes, I will keep writing about it because I think other people might be able to relate… and I enjoy relating myself!
Oh, and here is our beautiful stevia before deydrating….